~The women i've loved~

My favourite memories
many phases gone by
have been various women
most of those friendships - did die

I'd like to think
the women I've loved
reveled in suffering
but still rose heights above

it's a little known fact
I'm attracted to beauty
pain and fire
these are the things - that make us wiser

seven years and three times over
lessons taught - some short
but never - not one in vain
these women bind me ritually sane.

~Another Suitcase~

This yo-yo diet of love and hate
has slipped into a dangerous weight,
the lies you purged - weighed down on me
split my tongue with misery

i tried to hold the air so still
so the tension u leave - wont dare to build
you told me ’’everything will be Ok’’
’’we’re not the only ones that need to be saved’’

i found myself relying on on every breathe - every sigh
i told myself ’’Just hang on - don’t cry’’
you took me in with your words of love
you spat me out - as if i would never be enough

i watched myself let go of your hand
i gave you up - like a sacrificed lamb
i told you ’’maybe in the future - someday’’
i threw your suitcase and said ’’Go on - you cant stay’’

~Spring skips a beat~

what is this life we live?? is it the sound of bat wings on a cold winters night -- the shadow that dances from dawn to dim light -- the fire that smokes up the icy cold air -- the song your friend sings your heart can not bare -- what is this life ...we live to last -- but a motion of things that soon dearly pass***

~Table for two~

table for two - we sit across the room
table for ten - its only you that sees our doom
i watched you watching me
your smile hiding secretly

i smelt your scent travel with ease
from your corner table
it wrapped around my knees
i waited for the food to come

without any temptation my eyes
were alive
sipping martinis
tasting the drunk olives
smelling the freshly cut chives

i watched you watching me
a room filled with faces,
yours - caught my eye
""table for two please!!"" - before i surely die.

~Just walk away~

Dragging my dead body of thought
from one room to the next
the truth serum hit me
before i could forget

i hitched my skirt up higher
and pierced nails into thigh
with everything you left me
i could do nothing but cry

your sad hello - your drunken good-bye
how was i to know you had a plan to hide
i left you wanting more than you ever desired
you left me saving drips of what had transpired

i had no real reason to let you go
but my heart echoed this repetitive show
my head told me - sit down and stay
but my heart screamed - just bloodly walk away.

~Truth be tOld~

truth be told
i always knew you were a little slow
truth be told
i always knew you would grow too old
truth be told
i always liked the under-shaded life
truth be told
i always fashioned my life for no strife

truth be told
i see you fading in your 'fame'
truth be told
i see your eyes dying into lame
truth be told
i see you trying too hard to contain
truth be told
i see you lying to reach your claim

truth be told
you would be better if you slowed down
truth be told
you would be happier if you gained a pound
truth be told
we would be friends if you never frowned
truth be told
when you lied you caused this row.

~My mother never ~

a beautiful Chinese caftan draped her body
she drifted across the room with grace and music
the taste of wine lingered in the air
my mother was more beauty than beauty was fair

she spoke about a love’s obsession
a man so bold he stole her heart with passion
she told me stories of things that past
how this tortured man won her heart

a wicked education i got from her
many mistress’s my mother had to bear
i drunk from the juice of her life
so that mine would cause me no strife

my mother never lied - the stories she told
have made me wise from the earth of my soul
my armour i wear battered and bruised
but no man will ever make me a fool.